Currently, I am in the process of being reevaluated for Attention-Deficit/Hyperactivity Disorder. Also, one of my children has been recently diagnosed with Dyslexia and Dysgraphia, causing me to believe I should be evaluated too. I know I have a learning disorder, it has been apparent throughout my life. Yet, being diagnosed with ADHD at a young age, it was not investigated.
Through my child’s diagnosis process, we have learned that a learning disability can disguise itself as an attention issue. I will not be surprised to know that I also have Dyslexia and Dysgraphia alongside my ADHA. During my re-evaluation, I do not present as ADHA. Admittedly, I did have hyperactivity as a child. But as my metabolism slows down with age, so do my ADHD symptoms.
As An Adult
As an adult, I have no urge to fidget, and I can hold my focus very well. Over the years I developed coping mechanisms that are now part of my core personality. My ADHD Working Memory problem is still an issue for me. Now, I understand why I did not want to work as a waiter or in retail. The fear of writing or remembering something wrong scared me, and I believe dyslexia and dysgraphia contributed to that fear too. It will be nice to understand myself and know why I feared what I feared growing up.
As I ponder what I would like to do with my time for a career, I wonder if I should still keep those fears or let them go. Now, that I am strong and sure enough of myself, I do not think my learning disability will be a hangup for me. For a career, in the past, I wanted to be in the background under the instructions of someone else. I felt safe there, following orders and instruction manuals, and going through a daily routine.
Soon I will be referred to a healthcare professional who can evaluate me appropriately and I can have my answer. I am nervous and excited to find out if what I am already doing is enough or if medical intervention is necessary. I would like to make sure I am being the best me possible for my family while paving the way for my children.
Live Joy, Renee