I apologize for being on hiatus for many months now. There are many reasons why I was not writing. At the beginning of the year, I started to feel embarrassed about writing down so many intimate thoughts and feelings about myself. This caused me to pull back from this form of expression. I questioned yet again if I should stop and delete everything or leave it and ride out my subscription. As it was I left it alone in hopes I would find inspiration again.
K-Drama
Another lame reason is due to the writer’s strike. Due to the lack of new content, I went knee-deep in Korean Dramas. At first, I started with Korean Period pieces as an interesting way to learn about Korea. A weird side note, I have attached earlobes. Only 10% of the world’s population has them, but in Korea is nearly 50% of the population. I found this interesting and started to make crazy connections about my earlobes. Like maybe in my past life, I was a Korean and watching these shows will lead to me healing past-life traumas.
I believe it did, but then I ran out of Historical Dramas, so I went on to current-day ones. It was interesting to see how another country views society, how women are treated and the pressure from their honorific system. I also fell in love with their storytelling about Love. It feels more simple and uncomplicated than Western society. It is also portrayed with many obligations and family duties, which is a turn-off for me.
All Kids In School
This is the first time in my life that all my children are in school. That means I made it. This was my goal when I first decided to become a stay-at-home parent. However, I am having difficulty finding the motivation to do anything but watch Netflix. An empty house does not motivate me to do anything. I ran into this when I worked the Evening Shift at the beginning of my career. I thrive when I have a long to-do list or a house full of people I would like to avoid.
There is no clear solution for me yet, I will just keep getting up every morning and try my best.
Live Joy, Renee